I’ve been given the most remarkable experience. I’ve sought to convey the immensity of
emotion that lies trapped within my heart regarding it a multitude of times,
but it only escapes flawed. It
seems that words, although they are the fixation of my life, cannot describe
the overwhelming affections that surround these circumstances. So although I attempt at expressing my
tender happening, you will have to remember that the significance of the event
to my heart is extended beyond anything that can be released by my tongue.
A few weeks ago I was given the opportunity of reuniting with
my biological grandparents. I
existed through life without these individuals by my side, but because my love for
them imprinted my core, they were entwined into every piece of my living. Being within their presence is a day
that I have craved for as long as my memory can recall. The chance to be with them was
presented many months ago, but the complexities of my heart originally produced
fear, not elation. Pausing this
reconnection was the most tragic thing I have caused myself. However, the whisperings of
insecurities steered me away, panicking myself that I would be nothing but a
terrible disappointment to them. Satan
was my puppeteer. Instead of
cutting the strings, I allowed to be dragged around as a pawn to the arrival of
distressing destinations. I have a
sensitive, dear husband. He is
gentle and his words never exit his mouth in haste, nor do they become cluttered
with rushed perspectives. Through
my years with such a tender man, I have learned to quickly follow guidance that
he extends. During a painful
portion of my experience, he quietly, but firmly, recommended I move
onward. Meet them, was his request.
I followed.
My grandparents live quite a distance from me. As I came into their city, all
anxieties were set free. There was
a moment I believed I was experiencing heart failure, brought on by an absence
of oxygen. It was as though my
lungs concluded their labors, and left me alone to locate my next breath. As I approached their home, the most
endearing man wait for my presence.
As I pulled into view, he excitedly waved his arms into the air. My first glance upon him instantly
softened the weight that was standing on top of my heart. I opened my car door, and within an
instant they were at my side. In
their joy they had raced to be near me, something I could never have envisioned
occurring. Me? They were exultant to
see me? I still struggle with
such comprehension. Their affectionate arms wrapped
around me so rapidly, so tightly.
It was an embrace I never wanted to part from. It was a place I had never been positioned prior. The only way to explain it
is…love. Torrential tears doused
my cheeks. My heart…it seemed to
come alive. It beat wildly, as
though without them, it could only supply a weakened rhythm, but with them it
could create a pounding that could be heard from the exterior. Missing portions of my soul flew into
their proper place. And then in an
instant I felt it…home.
This experience is so precious to me because of the temporal
completion it created in my life.
But beyond that, it provided an illuminated recognition of what it will
be like to return to my heavenly home.
The home my spirit hungers for. This event, although perfected in an earthly sphere,
was a mortal moment, which means that it only holds a fragment of
correspondence to what our heavenly experience will entail. Encountering the depth of this
experience, and the fantastic emotions of delight which it carried, makes me ache for my divine reconnection. It has heightened my desires towards
righteousness, for when I am allowed to return to Him, I want my reunion to be
matchless.
Can you imagine the way our Father waits for us? I have never had to endure one of my
babies being absent from my side for longer than mere hours, yet even in this
short period of separation, coming back to them creates inexpressible
happiness. We are mortal, flawed
parents, yet we feel these deep affections. He is a celestial, perfected Father. His yearnings for his homebound
children are beyond our understanding, and He awaits with arms, which are held
open, permeating with His ultimate love.
Those arms, they anticipate us.
Individually. We are never
yearned for in a collective manner, because we are cherished in an
individualized way. We are not
seen as a face amongst a sea of His children, but are adored separately. He knows every component of us. He is aware of every element that
composes who we are. He desires you to be home with Him again. He watches you everyday, yearning to have you
in His presence. His greatest
happiness comes from the homecoming of each one of His children. All He seeks is to have His beloved
child back at His side. We cannot
forget how distinctive His love for us is. Nor can we leave behind the understanding that our return
home is something that He deeply anticipates. We are uniquely important to Him.
My best loved parable is that of The Prodigal Son. The parable is dear to me because it
echoes much of my personal experience in coming to Him. I especially appreciate the MormonMessage created around this scripture.
The visualization impacted my heart. We understand that the father in this story represents our
Heavenly Father. As I viewed the
video, being mindful of this symbolism, I was touched to my core as I watched
the father react to seeing his child on the pathway home. He detects him from a far way off, and
immediately runs to him. He never stops racing to be at his
child’s side. When he is close, his arms fall open, and he meets his child with
an embrace that spills with compassion and joy. His son is home.
His child is within His reach again. His desires have become an
actuality. It’s overwhelming to
watch.
The representation of our anticipated reunion within this
parable is flawless. He is unfailingly
and anxiously looking for us to embark on the passage that will lead us to
Him. When He sees us taking our
first step towards advancement, He does not delay in hastening to our side. He remains with us as we continue
forward, until the time we are able to depart from this mortal probation, to
enter our heavenly home, to be encompassed in His love. This is not to claim that He deserts us
if we exist on paths that lead away from Him, for He never departs. But much like the prodigal son, it is
us that pulls ourselves from His presence in these moments. Our ambitions and determinations maneuver
towards worldly targets, and we commence in walking in a direction in which He views
the back of us as we withdraw. Our
eyes leave His. We begin to feel
disconnected, because His tangible hands are regularly discerned as our souls
are striving towards our homeward objective. He does not leave us, it is us who abandon Him. He forever waits on us, seeking for us
to pivot, and desiring for the destination of our course to be modified,
centering on Him, focusing on home.
Our reunion can be glorious, providing the most unequaled experience
which will entirely engulf our hearts.
However, we must never lose sight of the gate that exists before
entering His presence. A polluted
spirit cannot enter the gateway, because they are unprepared to be with
Him. Some may proclaim that such a
belief is fictitious, and that because our Father loves us, the pathway leading
to him is broad and welcomes all.
This erroneous view was created from the father of all lies. He is aware of the gate. He knows that if we are distracted, when
we arrive, we will become subject to his dominion, not given the gift of
entrance. He enjoys in poisoning
our perspectives because it delays, or diminishes, our promised rewards. He understands that entry into those
gates will not be given unto him, and he is on a quest to capture as many of
Heavenly Father’s children as possible, that they may suffer an identical fate. Don’t be convinced in his altering of
truth. For the pathway was never
created by him, but was carved by our Father. Knowing that He is unchanging, we can have faith that like
Him, this pathway is fixed, an irreversible course home. It cannot, nor will it ever be, adapted
or modified to align with worldly transformations. It is a constant path, one that leads to a gate that we must
be certified to cross. And the
most significant part of this gate is in the one who stands waiting outside.
…Behold, the way for man is narrow, but it
lieth in a straight course before him, and the keeper of the gate is the Holy
One of Israel; and he employeth no servant there; and there is none other way
save it be by the gate; for he cannot be deceived, for the Lord God is his
name. (2 Nephi 9:41)
Jesus
Christ, He is the Keeper of the Gate.
There is
an incredible amount of depth within this single verse. In studying it I have gained an
intensified awareness of my Savior’s love for me, as well as His extensive
devotion to the Father. Christ
protects His Father and His sacred presence. He stands on the exterior of that gate as a judge, ensuring
that no impure spirit be permitted.
He is the ultimate assessor because He cannot be deceived. He knows all things. His knowledge of our deeds, words, and
intents are not a developing recognition, but instead a precisely finalized
understanding. His omniscience
allows Him to provide supreme justice.
He is conscious of the gravity that only the spotless be admitted. He safeguards His Father, His
Father’s kingdom, and His Father’s perfected children. Nothing that will add blemish to the
celestial will be allowed. This He
ensures by His hand. Knowing that
we will meet our Savior face to face, accounting to Him our actions,
engagements, and entertainments, should not produce fear, but should add
spiritual power to our lives.
Keeping this in the forefront of our minds, the accentuation of all we
do, can change a temporal perspective, to an eternal one. We will have the strength to better our
choices, improve our actions, and discern the filthiness of worldly
ideologies. We must allow this to
energize our resolve towards righteousness, and extend our spiritual
foundations, instead of enabling it to crumble these sacred structures by way
of fright. Fear is never produced
from the Lord, this is prescribed by Satan.
Understanding
that we are all imperfect, that we have all sinned, and that we have all
blotched our cleanliness, I find such symbolism in the fact that Our Savior
stands waiting. His Atonement,
through the process of repentance, is what washes us clean from our sins. In our final steps of returning home, as
we seek to enter our Father’s gates, Christ positions Himself to meet us first, that He may stand at
our side as we come into our Father’s presence. The One who has been positioned alongside us, never
faltering, throughout our entire existence. He again, stands with
us as we arrive home. His sacrifice is what has authorized
our entry. Without Him we would be incapable. His attendance with us provides physical fortification, as
well as symbolism that we have been cleansed from our imperfections by and
through Him. What a unparalleled
method of entry. As we speak of the divine justice that
is provided through Him, we must also recognize the divine mercy He releases. Just as the Lord has a perfect
knowledge of our state of cleanliness, He, too, has a flawless remembrance of
our acts of righteousness. The
quiet, unnoticed moments we virtuously stood. He extends His grace unto us. He is a just Lord.
He is a merciful Lord.
My most
favored portion of this verse: …He
employeth no servant there.
Our welcoming is not insignificant or lightly handled by our Savior. He does not give angels charge over
this most glorious of moments. He
gives this duty to no one, for He wants to fulfill it Himself. He
wants to be there when you arrive at
the gates. He wants to receive you. He
wants to be the first to open His arms to greet you. He wants to stand with you as you come unto the Father. He wants to be the
one. Why? Because you are that important, you are
that special, you are that unique, you are that vital to Him. He was a perfect being, never having
sinned, but loved us so completely that He suffered unimaginably, so that when
we reached those gates, justice permitting, we could enter by His grace. He knows how deeply our Father loves
us. His knowledge of this love is
perfect. That is why He gave all that we may have a way to come unto
Him. He wants to commence our sublime
reunion home. He desires to abide
with us as we cross through those gates, where our Father will come rushing to
our side, arms thrown around us, joy spilling from His face. For His precious child, they have returned home.
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